Lessons; significant ones .
A Year ; 365 Days of smiles,tears,indulgence, learning similarities and differences, being with or away from good and bad people, embracing stuff and evolving in self. A complete package of opportunities,gratification and hearing or telling tales which comfort us or resonate with us. All of this , we don't realize but actually, forms a much cherished part of our existence. 2017 left us. Wait here, yeah.. We are in 2018. Think of it for a while. 2018. Damn !
Reflecting back , I have a lot to say. Because this is a universal rule or a prerequisite that when you look back, you can't limit your sight to a particular point. You see everything your mind holds from the past. So here's a review of last 18 Years :
My Reality is a bitter-sweet one since I can remember. My mind throws at me the memories from nights I stayed awake wondering if things will ever get better. It is from the time I was just 8. I had started knowing things at an early age, things which anyone of my age wasn't supposed to know and didn't actually wanted to know anyway. The gloomy one liners I am writing since I was 11. From those times I have learnt that heart feels at home when a lil sad. Happiness never have that impact that conveys your 'belonging' to it or it owning and describing you. It doesn't even compliment your existence. Its alien to the soul. Just a visitor. But in sadness or the nothingness of emotions, we find comforts. We like that sluggish state of mind where senses are actually super active. We prefer being sad, or empty. Not the void kind of empty but a 'non existent' kind of empty where you are a person with no attachments or memories. Its like living on the Pacific.
From all the experiences I've had, I learnt that things get better. In this Universe comprising of countless things, the generated chaos , some external factors determine a lot of things for us. You can think of yourself as a painter, but you are a canvas with little role in which side of yours you offer to paint in the present moment. It does limit your role, so whatever happens is gonna feed the Universe. You have to do your role and in such a scenario, all that is demanded from you is an effort. Your best one. Whatever you do from studying to interacting with people, put best of your efforts. Results really don't matter because in the end, its dust that remains and memories which feed already built giants in our mind based on our judgments. So Simply, Just be the best you can and be selfless and unconditional in giving your best to everything and everyone.
This further implies that you posses a power greater than anything existing in the already explored world. Where does it come from when all I do is determined by some other elements ? From what you become in attempt to give this world a selfless you. When you offer something to the Universe, it blesses you with the light to see within and discover things very few had liberty to know. In all this, you discover the 'self' , the power your mind posses can melt stones, move mountains and calm the sun. Embrace it. Embrace it by actually offering it all to the Universe. Be a Messiah at every possible level.
From here comes the idea in my mind which I do understand but haven't really been able to convey to someone. An extremely complicated combination of thoughts which you can avoid reading.
( For some reasons, I have never actually questioned myself. Its because I have had a spiritual relation with myself where I don't have to communicate to get things conveyed to heart and mind. Still, the lesson I learnt from myself was of perfection that resides in me. In all of us, I am sure. It made me what I am. Know yourself. I actually feel strange while saying this because I haven't thought of myself as a second person. Its me, whatever it is. And I know. I don't have to label it as anything. I am sure of myself. The Faith I have in me is destructively incredible and fulfilling. Own the mistakes and stop lying to yourself. Accept yourself. 'Yourself' and 'you' have conveyed a different meaning in everything I mentioned above. The day it starting feeling odd, it would be the day of enlightenment. )
I am bad with endings. May be because I haven't really explored enough myself. So That's enough I guess. Hope you enjoyed reading.
Suggestions and feedback on how good or bad it was is what I would ask for. Have a Nice day .
Reflecting back , I have a lot to say. Because this is a universal rule or a prerequisite that when you look back, you can't limit your sight to a particular point. You see everything your mind holds from the past. So here's a review of last 18 Years :
My Reality is a bitter-sweet one since I can remember. My mind throws at me the memories from nights I stayed awake wondering if things will ever get better. It is from the time I was just 8. I had started knowing things at an early age, things which anyone of my age wasn't supposed to know and didn't actually wanted to know anyway. The gloomy one liners I am writing since I was 11. From those times I have learnt that heart feels at home when a lil sad. Happiness never have that impact that conveys your 'belonging' to it or it owning and describing you. It doesn't even compliment your existence. Its alien to the soul. Just a visitor. But in sadness or the nothingness of emotions, we find comforts. We like that sluggish state of mind where senses are actually super active. We prefer being sad, or empty. Not the void kind of empty but a 'non existent' kind of empty where you are a person with no attachments or memories. Its like living on the Pacific.
From all the experiences I've had, I learnt that things get better. In this Universe comprising of countless things, the generated chaos , some external factors determine a lot of things for us. You can think of yourself as a painter, but you are a canvas with little role in which side of yours you offer to paint in the present moment. It does limit your role, so whatever happens is gonna feed the Universe. You have to do your role and in such a scenario, all that is demanded from you is an effort. Your best one. Whatever you do from studying to interacting with people, put best of your efforts. Results really don't matter because in the end, its dust that remains and memories which feed already built giants in our mind based on our judgments. So Simply, Just be the best you can and be selfless and unconditional in giving your best to everything and everyone.
This further implies that you posses a power greater than anything existing in the already explored world. Where does it come from when all I do is determined by some other elements ? From what you become in attempt to give this world a selfless you. When you offer something to the Universe, it blesses you with the light to see within and discover things very few had liberty to know. In all this, you discover the 'self' , the power your mind posses can melt stones, move mountains and calm the sun. Embrace it. Embrace it by actually offering it all to the Universe. Be a Messiah at every possible level.
From here comes the idea in my mind which I do understand but haven't really been able to convey to someone. An extremely complicated combination of thoughts which you can avoid reading.
( For some reasons, I have never actually questioned myself. Its because I have had a spiritual relation with myself where I don't have to communicate to get things conveyed to heart and mind. Still, the lesson I learnt from myself was of perfection that resides in me. In all of us, I am sure. It made me what I am. Know yourself. I actually feel strange while saying this because I haven't thought of myself as a second person. Its me, whatever it is. And I know. I don't have to label it as anything. I am sure of myself. The Faith I have in me is destructively incredible and fulfilling. Own the mistakes and stop lying to yourself. Accept yourself. 'Yourself' and 'you' have conveyed a different meaning in everything I mentioned above. The day it starting feeling odd, it would be the day of enlightenment. )
I am bad with endings. May be because I haven't really explored enough myself. So That's enough I guess. Hope you enjoyed reading.
Suggestions and feedback on how good or bad it was is what I would ask for. Have a Nice day .
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